Feelings

And their weird role, in today’s world.

Okay, you know how we’ve evolved to use feeling to move us around. To help us navigate in the world?

Yeah? And what if it tells you to eat that cake. What then? Should you resit it? Should you go ahead and do it? What then?

What should you do in those moments of feelings one way, but thinking the other?

Nowadays, I feel like one needs to be so super strong with resisting things. Those moments just pile up, especially when you are on computer. And there is one thing after another to click on.

How could we deal with it?

On one side, I don’t want my feelings to just pass away. To resist them or to ignore them. When I draw, I know I need them in every moment to tell me where to go next. What is the next move. I need to be gentle and precise.

But then you go to check your email, seeing a tweet from someone interesting. I want to see it. “But this wasn’t your task.“ And then we resist it again. See?

And they always helped us, (meaning the feelings), but now they take us to never ending internet searches. We are getting to a position where, I need to shield or what.

Okay, here is the idea. They are some habits, or things that you can make a deal with yourself. When you are drawing, you are not undoying, or rubburing. Just moving forward. But again, I would resist the feelings. What if I know immediately the line isn’t good. I want different. My feelings tell me that it isn’t good, why would I resist it then?

Our muscle of resisting, or how to call it. Needs to be huge.

The mess.

What can we do that we would use our feelings as they were designed. And we would not need to go to the woods, just to have some clarity time. Or do we?

I just wonder, that with all those feelings, I want to use them and let them help me orient, as they are made for. But what about the extension: thoughts. What when you thought: “Eating ice ream now, at 23:00 isn’t good because xy” I can’t find a good reason for not doing it. I am sorry. It’s a fricking good idea. Unless you want to sleep. Even then.

Back to it. I just, oh yeah. I discovered now, that we can run into those a lot. Now how could one, train or even consider practicing it.

Some say it’s a meditation practice. Maybe it’s a interplay between many of those things.

If you want to make a 3 day fast. Book a place somewhere in da woods. Where there isn’t a food. Or take a tent and go there. It’s fun, you wouldn’t have anything to eat. And no temptations. No need for resistance. Just you are in the woods. You combine those things.

When you want to write a lot. Go somewhere where you don’t have a wifi. And you just write. Take whatever ability you have with you and go to write.

Whatever is something you are thinking of doing, you can optimize the environment. And on the other hand, you have this thing of wanting something feeling wise, and you don’t want to resist it.

Because it’s like you are resisting your long and primordial instincts. And then you can be all squied up next time you go do something else. You have a good idea, but you’ve resisted it in the past. Shouldn’t you wait and do it later? Can you see how confused you can get? The same feelings and, different responses.

It’s weird. It’s really really weird. But as I said. Help yourself with environment. So you don’t even run into them.